Tuesday, February 23, 2010 @ 5:22 AM
I CANT EXPLAIN MYSELF.
Well maybe im in a very bad mood way..
well, me n bby had nt gone very well.
mybe because of my menses. well mybe IDK.
seriously IDK. i just cant describe what im feeling.
maybe im sad? angry? stress? studies? families? babyboi?
i just cant expLAIN
im very speechless now.. every day i hope tht my
problems all settled but no, it becoming more major and major.
my N-level cooming n its a total of 330bucks.
atok want to pay fr it bt i wont allow him to,
cz he had fine of 150 and a bill of 500+
hw r they gnna survive?? well i cant do aniting
but to study hard fr them... its a promise i made to
go to polytechnic one day.
i cried while saying this to my atok n nenek just nw.
"shasha janji atok ngn mak one day shasha akan masok Poly k,
shasha sayang atok ngan mak, mak ngn atok tkmo pergi dulu tau,
tngok shasha masok poly dengan naek pelamin"
atok says.
"macam ane pon atok akan tetap jage anak atok, atok nk shasha masok
poly, atok akan selalu tngok shasha. tkmo hampakn atok."
i cried while saying that to my atok n nenek just nw.
i really love them alot, i strt to have interst to dnce
was frm them. and started to like SENI from them too
not all girls likes seni, swear i love malay dance, malay traditional songs
and more got to do with seni. i really love it bcz my grandparents lve it too.
i just cant explain how describe myself.. from small they tc of me.
until a scariest nightmare tht was on 2006 going 2007.
my dad tried to seperate us away. its very hard fr me. it is..
i kept on calling them at night n cry. i cant sleep without them.
why at tht point of time they were very heartless? why?
knape baba buat shasha mcam gnie? knape? baba suka
tngok anak baba menderita kn? even now ur makin me sufer.
im totally hurt with u... but there's ntg cn seperate me with my grandparents.
i love them too much....
for my bby love...
im so sorry syg. im very sorry.
but bear with me plz...
i really had a very missarable life...
im confuse n i dont know wht to do..
plz after reading this do not ask n ask n ask.
plz undertand me syg...
last time u understood me when im sad,
but nw no u dnt,,
wen im sad i cant talk, i cant even open my mouth.
let me cool down fr awhile n i can tlk..
plzz baby i dnt need much frm u..
i just need u to understnd me wen im sad/down.
I CANT EXPLAIN MYSELF.
Saturday, February 20, 2010 @ 6:56 AM
everiting is settled now! yey!! =)
i knew that it wont break off tht easily
i and u will be together and frever!
oh yah! oh yah!
i frget to post.
on wed, met my bbygerl, ellyboo
my bbyboi n adam. went to the
airport to cllect brochure fr EBS.
before tht we chill at Coffee bean.
after collecting brochure.
went to grandlink and karoeke!!
SUMPAH BEST! N KLAKA!
ELLY NK LAGU EVRYTIME WE TOUCH?!
ambek tuh lgu drng bukak! hahah!
after tht went to kampong mlayu,
jumpa abah n ibu, and capai asap.
after tht took bus home!
tc ppl! loves!!!
I MIS SABBIE. LYNA, ERMA N ELLY!
meet u guys soon! muakkksss!
Thursday, February 18, 2010 @ 4:13 AM
Wer's the Yan that i knew?
where's the promises?
where's the 110% love gne to?
im very speechless nw..
i dnt knw hw to express my feelings..
im really gne mad and really2 speechless.
i have no mood to post alr.
watever it is, i still love u
and i really2 do..
seriously love u n i wont tke other guys.
ill wait fr u to cme bck my
bbyboi, i love u my habie
Saturday, February 6, 2010 @ 9:22 PM
well, its going to cme back to my life!
im going to start what i really love to do soon!
bbyboi gnna make it happen!
i syg u syg! hehec.. betol betol betol
but we're making it slow ferst.
i syg my bbyboi so much! yey! hehehehec..
i SERIOUSLY CANT WAIT LH EHS!
KK today one of my bbygerl also wanna strt it back!
bby, altough me fight arugue and all
our love will nvr fade away!
im very hyper nw cz of smething untill i dnt knw wht to type.
hahax.. btw, today had a fam outing.
since atok n nenek cme here and meet us
my cousins n uncle cme here n we went to e beach.
wanted to meet bby but time doesn't allow. =(
i miss bby so much altough we just meet yesterdy.
i realised tht our love is becoming much more stronger!
and and and
VALENTINES DAY IS COOMING!
I CANT WAIT TO....
hahacc.. shhhh.. k lhs.. i got to go.. bye ppl!
SHAYAN 110109
WILL ALWAYS BE TOGETHER
NO ONE WILL SEPERATE US..
! LOVE YOU HABIE!
Friday, February 5, 2010 @ 6:23 AM
tody i fought with bby again in the afternoon.
bt after tht ok already.. but after went home
i cht with my bbygerl and i get scoldng frm bby..
i dnt knw whts up to bby today..
tdie petang i nga sakit n ur busy with ur work..
idnt get it y cnt u even spend only 15mins to explain to
me everithing. y bby?! i almost faint tdie tau syg.
i pening gler rabak syg. but wht were u doing?
putting preasure on me.. haexx.
b, how dissapointed i am bby wen u said like tht?
i was very upset syg.. i knw i made some mistakes bfre
bt plz bby i did it only once. we made mistakes bt y i cn accept it
and still be strong syg.. y? because i love u n my love is very strng,
bby i tk sangke u ckp gtu pt i syg. sriously syg. i wont hate u
i will never evr hated u bbyboi. ill always love u syg.
i just cnt describe hw i feel nw dear. sumpah. hati i hancor
i hampa tau tk? sumpah b, i tk sanggup lgie b nk tahan nie semua
i cnt elebroate more. i think nie semua cobaan to mke our love
much much much more stronger syg. its been 1 year i tahan ur ego
bt y i dnt complain or shout out like u did all this time? bcz i knw
i still cn cntrol n forget abt it. bt y u cnt? im puzzled syg.
i think should stop here lhs.. nt going anymore futhur.
today is nk my day... i lost alot of tears today too.
bcz of the NO ONE. haex.x..
tht song really means alot.. byes..
and remember im absolutely nt gnna hate u
bcz i love u much n frever syg.
its an
EVERLASTING LOVE....
remember? i jujuk!
Labels: i love u and ill always do
Wednesday, February 3, 2010 @ 6:28 AM
BBy, the kissed, the hug, the talks, the comfort and everiting abt u to me
is just so marvelous. the first tme we met was the most funniest part.
but evry time that we spend last time was very precious.
the laughs, hugs, jokes and all were very nice. ummm.. hahahxc..
but after mnths, theres this part wen we sat on this double decker bus
and hear NO ONE sang by Alicia Keys, that was the ferst time we grabed
our hand or hold or hand TIGHTLY, showing hw hard our love is n
no one will seperate us as the song goes "no one, no one, no one".
after weeks later bby bring me to go to the place wer he usually go wen his stress.
it was this tower near by the beach its a very calm place and we talk things out
and let our hearts n feelings out. it was e SUPERB DAY ever syg! hehec
last year the early months was great fr us altough its hard fr me to
face the attitude of yours.. i had alot of patients and i cried fr u alot bt all the tears
made me love u more my dear. u wont knw hw i feel tht point of time
nt tlking to u even fr a secnd cn mke me go mad. but after mnths later
tht i cnt tke it wth ur attitde tht acuse me fr no reason, i did a very big mistke.
i lied to u n almost wnna leave u alone and go on my seperate way.
BUT YOUR JUST TO GREAT tht i cnt leave u. u cme to my house
and kneel dwn to me n crying non-stop and im there holding my tears...
im very sorry n i gave u second chnce n you did treasure it. to mke u believe me
again iss to quit wrking there. so i diid. after mnths it was great until our 1year..
n nw hear r we!.. 1year going to 1yr 1mnth.. i knw these days was nt great fr us,
NOwadys u wnna go fr early slips and keep on wodering y.
if i cn slip late jst to tlk with u y nt u?
if i dnt cmplain abt it y ur complaining?
but other thn tht we spend great times together
my love my heart my everiting does nt change if theres nothing with me.
of smeting is wrng with me thn u cn see the changes in me. the time wasn't
the same lke we used to be last time. it chnges alot. i have to go through it
altough it hurts me much. im very sory dear if my attitude sucks nwadys.
im so sorry. but u just remember this , my heart n love n TRUST is still e same.
but im trying my best to b e old happy, strong, cheerish, mnja, lovely shasha
again.. im trying to my dear. but plz dnt always put oresure on me, nwadys
ive been crying just fr u. tht really reflected me on e old shasha, e one tht alwys
cried fr him. nw bby's asleep.. altough its hrd fr me bt i hve to tke it.
its hrd fr me bcz we alwys tlked at 11pm till 12am. bt nwadys his aslip so early.
bt nvm its ok.. i just hve to fllw it even wen its hard... no matter wht
i still lve u.. muakkss!...
When u hve bike n a stable job plz dnt frgt me n go to others bcz
NO ONE WILL GET THE WAYS UPON I FEEL FR U BBY!
NO ONE NO ONE NO ONE.. GETTING THE WAY I FEEL FR U..
U.....U....U..... GETTING THE WAY I FEEL FR U....
ily bby. n i wont leave u. =)